Why Are You Here?

Have you ever been in conversation with people and asked them what is there "why" in their business and they don't have an answer?

Have you ever asked yourself why are you even here and never come up with a reason why you were so important that you came into existence during this time in - this era?

I was once that person.

I always knew I was here for human services (always worked where I served people in the medical field); to protect (can't stand for people to be bullied specially for things that are out of their control); to enlighten (no sense in looking at people stumbling in the dark when you have a light to share); and to redirect (if you're going the wrong way via your behavior, I'm sure to point you in a better direction).  But how I was to get that done?  I was totally lost - until recently.

Before I tell you how I'm getting that done, let me share how that made me feel mentally.  Working hard aimlessly with no sight of a light at the end of any tunnel.

I was burning out bad because I was always doing, doing, doing, and giving, giving, giving, without any refilling.
Life was feeling like a never ending circle of attracting people that needed assistance with solving problems, mental health issues, childhood trauma that leaked into their adulthood, and people who deal with developmental disabilities.
It's never wise to continue life in such a manner so I had to figure out how to scale my life in order to be more efficient for why I was even here.

What I did saved my sanity.

I got in the mirror (one of my many therapeutic options - coping skills - I developed as a child) and I began counseling myself.  Even as a child, people were always coming to me as if I were the "problem solver" in our community.
I told myself to start looking at how I always approached this situation without strategizing.  At how I was portioning my energy to deal with it.  I also told myself to start thinking about how each time someone came to me to note how they came to me feeling the way they did, how they left me feeling the way they did, and how I felt as they came and went.

As I thought about these things, I began to do a lot of writing about them.  Recently, I started journaling again and I also wrote poetry.  These are two other therapeutic options I thrived with as a child. 

This became an eye opener for me.  What I've been doing to support others in life was exactly what I needed for myself.  So I started a new regimen of affirmations that reminded me why I was so effective and how to be more sufficient with my own energy so the next time others came to me, I wasn't left drained like a dry toilet.

Out of the pit of my being I began to bellow out, "I AM here to enjoy everything life has to offer.  I AM here to fulfill my mission.  I AM here to grow beautifully as the flowers I enjoyed in my Grandparents yard."
Once I began not only saying, but doing these things, I stopped feeling as if I was going around a wheel like a hamster with no destination wearing myself out.

The other thing I gained insight on; it wasn't people draining me that caused me to feel this way.  The issue was me NOT portioning out my energy appropriately.  Recharging myself with new affirmations and acting on them not only replenished what I gave out, it also caused me to never be so low of energy that I can't serve myself.  Now that I was recharged greater everyday, there was no longer this sensation of dreading people coming to me.

I can't began to tell you how freeing something this simple was for me. Now, people come to me in droves and I look forward to it with great anticipation.  I feel so much better being able to give more because now I have more.  Actually, I always had it.  I just wasn't using it.

Tapping into yourself realizing why you are here and how you are going to accomplish everything can unlock a tremendous amount of energy you never noticed was at your disposal.

Until next time........TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES MENTALLY❣️

Much love,